I am a young mom of two beautiful boys & they are my biggest motivation for striving to live healthy in every way - mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically, etc.
I began my journey of becoming a healthy version of myself & living a consistent healthy lifestyle on February 21, 2018.
My first step was going home to family for some help mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially, & physically.
I had hit my rock bottom, in so many ways. I was living in an insanity cycle, wanting more & wanting better - yet continuously putting myself in the same situations & unhealthy relationships back to back, that only drug me back even further. I started drinking alcohol ‘occasionally’ at a very young age, as it was a social ‘norm’ in my family & this ended up with me being a full-blown alcoholic by the time I was 21 years old.
I was battling depression, anxiety, & PTSD for years without really realizing it or getting any professional help. I was feeling so many negative, overwhelming things I could never explain to anyone. I couldn’t hold a job. I was never happy, no matter what was happening in my life or what I had. I was arrested a few times. I had moments where I thought I was going to die. I dropped out of school. I abandoned my kids. I married a man I didn’t really want to spend forever with. I drowned my pain in alcohol, drugs, & sex - whenever & however I possibly could.
After years of living in a cycle of abusive/toxic relationships with family, friends & lovers, assaults, bad decisions, & down right traumatic experiences - I finally broke, entirely. I was involuntarily placed in psychiatric facilities 3 times, in less than a year because of my untreated/wrongly treated mental health. (I will talk in more detail about this at another time). The third time I was hospitalized (January 30, 2018) was my real wake up call, I knew in that moment that if I didn’t get some actual help that I was going to end up taking my own life - consciously or subconsciously.
So, February 21, 2018 I took my first step on the road to recovery by getting on that plane & going home to family - which brought me lots of love, support, sobriety, & healing.
In the end, I was nowhere near the person I was when I stepped off the plane & I haven’t stopped growing/healing since. It hasn’t been easy, but it’s definitely been worth it.
Recovery is much more than sobriety from substances - there are so many areas of recovery in my life personally, that I can’t wait to share with you through my testimony.
I may have two years of recovery, at this point, but this is only the beginning, join me on this lifelong journey of being the person God intended for me to be - while hopefully I can help you tap into your God-given purpose & potential.
Be the light in your own darkness, darling.